gw ngerasa tady tuh pengen nulis tentang sesuatu.tapi tiba" semua nya hilang dan gw bingung sendiri apa yang sebenernya gw pengen tulis.gw udah berusaha mengingat,,tapi tampaknya usaha itu sampe sekarang blom berhasil.

well,,sekarang gw lagi menatap layar komputer,duduk dengan pose jongkok kayak mau berak (padahal gw duduk di kursi).udig emang.
masih bau keringet soalnya biz pembinaan dan sampe sekarang blom beranjak mandi.betapa joroknya gw hari ini.

oiya.
gw tadi ngecheck email" yang masuk di hotmail.dan ada satu email dari janice yang isinya tentang puisi seorang ayah ke anaknya.
anaknya namanya rachel.umurnya sepuluh bulan (menurut email itu).dan dy kena brain cancer.brain cancer,,di umur nya yang masih sepuluh bulan.wew.
satu"nya cara adalah operasi sementara keadaan ekonomi keluarganya tuh g memungkinkan.
puisinya gini :

TO MY CHILD

Just for this morning, I am going to smile when I see your face and laugh when I feel like crying. Just for this morning, I will let you choose what you want to wear, and smile and say how perfect it is.
Just for this morning, I am going to step over the laundry and pick you up and take you to the park to play.
Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink, and let you teach me how to put that puzzle of yours together.
Just for this afternoon, I will unplug the telephone and keep the computer off, and sit with you in the backyard and blow bubbles.
Just for this afternoon, I will not yell once, not even a tiny grumble when you scream and whine for the ice cream truck, and I will buy you one if he comes by.
Just for this afternoon, I won't worry about what you are going to be when you grow up, or second guess every decision I have made where you are concerned.
Just for this afternoon, I will let you help me bake cookies, and I won't stand over you trying to fix them.
Just for this afternoon, I will take us to McDonald's and buy us both a Happy Meal so you can have both toys.
Just for this evening, I will hold you in my arms and tell you a story about how you were born and how much I love you.
Just for this evening, I will let you splash in the tub and not get angry.
Just for this evening, I will let you stay up late while we sit on the porch and count all the stars. Just for this evening, I will snuggle beside you for hours, and miss my favourite TV shows.
Just for this evening when I run my finger through your hair as you pray, I will simply be grateful that God has given me the greatest gift ever given.
I will think about the mothers and fathers who are searching for their missing children,
the mothers and fathers who are visiting their children's graves instead of their bedrooms.
The mothers and fathers who are in hospital rooms watching their children suffer senselessly and screaming inside that little body.
And when I kiss you goodnight I will hold you a little tighter, a little longer. It is then, that I will thank God for you, and ask him for nothing,

except one more day..............



menurut gw itu semua nunjukin betapa dy sayang sama anaknya.nunjukin he will do anything to make his daughter's life better,,makes her happy.dy mau ngebwat hari" anaknya jadi hari" yang indah.

and read that poem remind me to my dad.
and i realized he does do all those things to make my life even better.

and i love him.

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